THIS TIME HE'S GONE TOO FAR

I think it's time to actually start using my blog for the other initial intended purpose, that is to jot down my feelings and emotions. So far I haven't touched on my personal life much apart from the meals I've had.... How do I begin?

I've just found out that one of my good friends have been doing some stuff behind my back. For many reasons I do not have the right to be upset about this, but somehow the hurt feelings I just can't control. I find that this is a type of betrayal which I absolutely cannot take...

I just need a place for me to vent my frustrations and not a people bashing exercise, so if I am not writing this post out to be fully comprehendable, please forgive me. I always try to be a good friend to my friends, and luckily I do have a few friends which I know I can trust 100%. This particular "friend" has really gone too far this time. The situation has been played out before, with me being the latest being hurt.

The emotions that I've gone through in the last 48 hours has been a real roller coaster ride... I felt anger at first, then came hurt, betrayed, lied to, confusion. All my previous values and beliefs of how friends should treat each other have been turned upside down. Now I'm tired. Mentally and physically tired. So after calming down and much contemplation, I've decided that it is not worth it to continue this "friendship".

I do not need any explanations or anything like that from him, I just want to let go... I just need to be surrounded by people that really cares about me, not someone who apprears to be everyone's friend.