I think it's time to actually start using my blog for the other initial intended purpose, that is to jot down my feelings and emotions. So far I haven't touched on my personal life much apart from the meals I've had.... How do I begin?
I've just found out that one of my good friends have been doing some stuff behind my back. For many reasons I do not have the right to be upset about this, but somehow the hurt feelings I just can't control. I find that this is a type of betrayal which I absolutely cannot take...
I just need a place for me to vent my frustrations and not a people bashing exercise, so if I am not writing this post out to be fully comprehendable, please forgive me. I always try to be a good friend to my friends, and luckily I do have a few friends which I know I can trust 100%. This particular "friend" has really gone too far this time. The situation has been played out before, with me being the latest being hurt.
The emotions that I've gone through in the last 48 hours has been a real roller coaster ride... I felt anger at first, then came hurt, betrayed, lied to, confusion. All my previous values and beliefs of how friends should treat each other have been turned upside down. Now I'm tired. Mentally and physically tired. So after calming down and much contemplation, I've decided that it is not worth it to continue this "friendship".
I do not need any explanations or anything like that from him, I just want to let go... I just need to be surrounded by people that really cares about me, not someone who apprears to be everyone's friend.
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Hi there fellow food-lover,
Des has briefed me on what happened... I didn't really understand at first but I guess things are never black and white.
Hope you're ok and I just want you to know that I look at your blog from time to time and love all the photos of lovely food... they make me drool...
Anyway, I'm sure you'll have much love and support from your true friends... :)
Sometimes, no friends can be trusted 100%. You would have to rely on yourself.
I am glad you found out before it is too late. For me, this kinda friend is not worth keeping. You still have many friends who are good and supportive to you - cherish them. Leave the bad ones behind.
Des: Thanks. Good luck with your coming exams.
Indie & Gina: Thanks for your comforting words. I am trying to be strong and hopefully I can get over this "thing" soon. Leave the bad ones behind I shall! Seriously, now I can trully understand the phrase, "With a friend like this, who needs enemies!"
Mom said...
"THEY DON'T DESERVE YOU"
give yourself a chance to move on...
he thinks that he is everyone's friend, organising putlucks and social activities etc...honestly, being the sonofabitch like he is right now and considering how he treated you, i wonder how many more friends will actually treat him like who he "thinks" he is...bottom line, his under-cover-act speaks louder than his pretending act!!
Anon: Not sure if the 2 anons are the same person. Anyway, thanks for your kind comments.
Despite everything that have happened, I've learnt not bottle up my feelings and open up more to people. Ironic, isn't it?
Mom said...
"To go get a life"
How come no news after Nov? We need an update. Being a dedicated blogger you can let your fan down. Write up!!
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